Wishing a certain someone would ever so kindly, UNsubscribe to my blog. If you'd like I'll just get a tracking device attached to my wrist or something for you!! Since apparently you live and breathe to know my every move. When you actually no longer have ANY business putting your nose (in my life) where it doesnt belong..do it w/someone else for a change!!! There is nothing to know, and there wont be!!! GROW UP!!!
However, if you're not the person slash two persons Im addressing above (and you'd know if you were, trust me lol) then I COMPLETELY love you for following and looking at my blog!!! I am just beyond aggravated with ppl and their drama and tryin to live in the past. Its over and done with yet some ppl still dont get it...anyhow, sorry for the rant! I rarely ever get mad enough to rant and actually blog/tlk/tell about it...but today Ive had it up to here (holding hand above head) with crazy immaturity! haha LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!
Sooo stinkin much to look forward too! Not to even mention all the CHRISTmas festivities!! And all the other fun things planned between now and then!! Whew, I can hardly wait for all God's bringing about!!!!
So, I got into it w some ragweed yesterday. And woke up this am & realized Mr Ragweed won! Ugh!!! Sneezy. Itchy, water eyes. Runny nose. Headache. No fun!!!
what is with all the horrible language on the vma's?? and all these bands who ive never even heard of! haha! havent watched an award show in ages....but things are a LOT different now days. makes me feel old..and kinda sad. haha just bc of how society accepts so much more these days. uncool.
Life changes. People come and go, and seasons never last.
Nothing stays the same. We can count on that. Good times come and go...finances are ever changing...our health will eventually fail us. And through death or decision, everyone we know will someday leave us.
All except for Jesus Christ. Jesus will never leave you nor forsake you. And because of that we have the strength to love with all our hearts...even unaware of what tomorrow brings.
Thats what I want you to take away from today's service. Jesus stays.
On of my favorite quotes from "Leaving" by Karen Kingsbury.
Well, I didnt get to do what I had planned for Thursday, but still had a wonderful time fishing all day w/my dad!!!! I wouldnt trade that for the world!! Today was a crazy day...but still very awesome! I had lots to do and get done and like I said previously, FINALLY got tickets to see the best band of all time :) [HAD to mention that again...Im overly excited about it!] I also went to dinner w my BFF then to the Southeast Murray game...and YA'LL! Southeast WON!!! Not only did they win, they beat the Indians 70 to NOTHING! hahaha!!!!! Totally broke a school record. :) I love me some Raider football...even tho I did look like I was still a student there haha. And Im so proud of Coach Cale!!!! HAHA! He's got 'Indian' blood, yet coached those Raiders on to victory! LOL! Whew, what a night! Now..off to bed. Sleep didnt come for me last night..lets hope tonight is much different! Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!!!!! Loves!!
I just sat through what felt like torture haha It took me ages to finish just TWO sections on that darn test. (and there are like 18 haha!) Geeeez Louise!!! I already know all of it too! Except the field dressing part....whew!! I had to take some loooong breaks. haha I cant imagine if I were in a classroom while they were teaching that! HA! Might as well call me an ambulance...LOL!! I could do it if I had too, but thats what the men are for! ;) I did watch from a closer distance last year...Im not as grossed out seeing it as I use to be, but hearing words like 'drain the blood' ...'break the sternum'...'cut through the breastplate'....BLAHHH!!! No thanks. haha Maybe this season will do me some good! Finally toughen my booty up!! :)
So..dad just asks me what the name was of the worms I use for fishing (the lovely FAKE worms that, though they smell like formaldehyde, they're not alive and they dont require killing and guts) and I simply replied...Trident. WOW. Berkley maybe?! LOL! Got some pretty funny looks from that one!
Thanks to my WONDERFUL AMAZING little sister, I just found out that NEEDTOBREATHE (my favorite band of ALL time!) is coming to town!!!!!!!!!! OH. MY. GOODNESS!!! I've wanted so bad to see them, for years now! I've looked at their site a million times in hopes of them adding closer tour dates..I've even tried to buy Taylor Swift tickets JUST to see them close to home! HA! I am soo stinkin excited! Today is the day the Lord has made, I WILL rejoice and be glad in it! That was my thoughts this am as I got out of bed & on the way to work I decided nothin was gonna get me down bc of that truth. And can I just say how amazing it is when God DOES go the little extra mile. :) *squeals in excitement!*
"People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered. Love them anyway. If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives. Do good anyway. If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway. The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. Be honest and frank anyway. The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds. Think big anyway. People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs. Fight for a few underdogs anyway. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway. People really need help but may attack you if you do help them. Help them anyway. Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you have anyway."
I was just on Facebook and my lovely sidebar reminded me of my status updates on this day, last year. I didnt realize it but.....all the feelings Im feeling lately about this new tattoo were exactly what I was feeling this time last year!!! I was sooo stinkin nervous that, had I not been with someone willing to make me sit down and shut up (haha!) I would have walked right out of that tattoo parlor!! SO, with that in mind......I am preparing myself to go SOON and suck it up and get the tattoo Ive wanted for 3YEARS!!! I am closer to getting it than I was last wknd!! lol After all...I did force myself to wait a year.... ;)
Forgiven. Its a word that describes me, and why I live through and for a love that is eternal.[Jesus Christ] But its a word that I have recently had to learn again. I realized the other day, I hadnt forgiven some people of some hurts. It wasnt that I didnt want to...I just hadnt done it. I was more focused on how hurt I was and how I wanted things fixed. Prayers poured from my heart daily and I couldnt understand a bit of what was happening. And it hit me the other evening that I hadnt forgiven those people and those hurts. I immediately felt so ashamed! If GOD can forgive ME of all my sins & hurts done to Him...who am I not to forgive and hold onto a hurt done to me, by someone just as human as myself!? Wow. Talk about a smack in the face. :) I prayed right then, in my car, for God to help me forgive the hurts been done to me....bc I believe sometimes forgiveness is more than just saying "I forgive them"....I believe its a choice, not simply words. And I believe that sometimes your choice and your emotions dont line up together. So to me, forgiveness is something I have had to give to God. Trusing He would line up my emotions with my choice. And He does! Every time!!! I believe you should forgive, always. (Colossians3:13) Even if the person doesnt want your forgiveness or even if you cant tell them you've forgiven them. So with this new forgiveness, has also came JOY for me!!!! I am just at a COMPLETELY different place today than I was this time last week!!! Nothing has changed. Not my desires. Not my hurts. Not my questions. Not my confusion. Not even my circumstances. But oh how great it is to have the JOY of the LORD inside you!!!!!!!! I was able to speak with a person who I had forgiven that very night after praying in my car through a txt msg I recieved late that night. And I must say, God ALWAYS works things out for the good of those who love Him!!! It felt really good to put some things to rest that night, but I believe with every thing in me that no matter had I gotten to tlk to that person...this Joy would still be in my heart tonight. Bc THIS Joy can only come from the Lord!!! And I recieved it the very moment I stopped focusing on myself and released that hurt and anger I held, up to God. Question for you, is there anyone you need to forgive? Truly forgive...more than just the words? I can promise you that giving up a hurt to God and forgiving someone is like freedom. It unlocks the handcuffs of hatred. Its amazing. And its what we're called to do! So Im encouraging anyone who's reading this to let go...and let God. FORGIVE! :)And if you yourself havent receieved forgiveness...there is a God willing to give it to you just as easy as He is your next breath!!!! All you've gotta do is ask!!! Praying for my readers tonight!!!! And wanting you to know just how much it means to me that so many of you follow and read my blog and pray for me when I need it. Lots of Love!!! -AW
Mark 11:25 ESV And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.”
Luke 17:3-4 ESV Pay attention to yourselves! If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him, (4) and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, saying, ‘I repent,’ you must forgive him.”
Matthew 18:21-22 ESV Then Peter came up and said to him, “Lord, how often will my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? As many as seven times?” (22) Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven.
Matthew 5:44 ESV But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,
Colossians 3:13 ESV bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive.
Luke 23:33-34 ESV And when they came to the place that is called Calvary, there they crucified him, and the criminals, one on his right and one on his left. (34) And Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.” And they cast lots to divide his garments.
I bought Karen Kingsbury's book LEAVING yesterday...and it AMAZES me so completely how much her books ALWAYS get to me!!! First, its like you're watching a movie, reading about these characters. Second, they deal with real life issues that I COMPLETELY understand. And she makes everything turn back to God and His continual love and guidance for us. Karen Kingsbury, I just love you. :) It would totally make my day (slash, life:) to meet her someday!!! I can barely wait to get the second book in the series, already! haha And from what I read on her site...only like a 100 more days til the third one is released!! hehe
08.12.11- Movie Date. Dinner at Chilis. Then Captain America, which was pretty awesome. I always go to those movies not really caring to see them but then LOVING them...thats why I agreed to it. haha It was good and now Im excited for another one lol but disliked the ending....but that always seems to happen haha.
08.13.11-Today is just getting started for me, since I just woke up. haha I didnt sleep much at all this wk and then was up superrr late getting in last night but oh how good it felt to sleep in for the first time in FOREVER! haha I was suppose to be going to get my new tattoo today... :( but had to give all my money away earlier in the week haha So now Im waiting til next Saturday. Im kinda bummed that I didnt get to get it today..........but Im still a lil indecisive on which one I want so its prob good Im waiting another week.....I may leave w/two more new ones. Who knows!! lol Today is my Jesus-saved-me birthday!!!!! I think I get more excited about this day than I do April 20th. haha Though, I dont get any presents and no one else seems to think its a special day...haha but I enjoy it no matter how much it irks others. lol Its a huge day for me. Especially with all that life has thrown at me lately....to know that EIGHT yrs ago my life changed ETERNALLY. Before that, I was a completely different person....and even still, you THINK you've grown so much...but then you realize that its a never ending process....God doesnt say 'ok, youre in....live life.'...not at all!!! Instead He is constantly showering you with LOVE and guidance, constantly allowing things to happen to grow your faith and draw your heart closer to Him! It amazes me, really. Anyway, Im off to go do a lil (birthday) shopping at LifeWay ;) And then GNO w/my bestie tonight!! I may even scrap up and go get my EIGHT13 tattoo.... would be pretty darn awesome birthday present... hehe. Anyway, hope everyone has a blessed weekend!!! Until later! ♥AW
Btw, totally dreamed I killed THREE bucks last night...bahahaha!!! I cant WAIT for hunting season. All this 'gun' talk and talk about getting the hunting property ready and I guess it just flowed over into my dreams...didnt get to use my gun last season, but oh how Im pumped and ready for this year!!! Its funny how a girl can watch her dad do something her whole life and never really have any interest in it what so ever....til she's waaayy older. haha Guess the fact that he loves it sooo much, makes me love it. And now Im driven by it....NEVER wouldve imagined APRIL would be excited for summer to end, and ready to suit up in camo, go sit in the freezing cold in the woods, and shoot a poor defensless animal. haha But that is exactly how I feel. :)
def can relate it to my life in this exact moment. tonight i sat in a parking lot reading a few chapters enjoying the view of the setting sun, before heading home. and through tears...i could completely grasp the cry and pain in Job's voice. I could feel it. I know it all too well.
God, whatever You're doing...I know its gonna be HUGE.
and I know this 'wait', to see it...is only part of Your plan. Lord, use me. Im here. Waiting. And willing. Im not letting up..or letting go.
The more we let God take us over, the more truly ourselves we become - because He made us. He invented us. He invented all the different people that you and I were intended to be. . .It is when I turn to Christ, when I give up myself to His personality, that I first begin to have a real personality of my own. C. S. Lewis
Never has this song been more appropriate. Wow. God, thank you. Thank you for holding me up when everyone else is trying to drag me down. Thank you..for what the devil intends to use to destroy, you turn around and use it to grow my faith in You!!! After today, I really really needed this. God never fails to leave me in AWE over His goodness!!!!! AND His GREATNESS!!!! ♥
There's a little flame inside us all
Some shine bright
Some shine small
The rains will come
And the waters rise
But don't you ever lose your light
In this life you will know Love and pain Joy and sorrow So when it hurts When times get hard Don't forget whose child you are
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Gonna let it shine
May you live each day
With no regret
Make the most of every chance you get
Let your eyes get wide
When you look at the stars
With the same sense of wonder as a child's heart
With the ones you love
Treasure the time
And for those who are gone
Keep the memories alive
Hold on to your dreams Don't you ever let go There's a fire inside you Burning with hope
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Gonna let it shine
There will be days when you wanna give up When the clouds settle in But after the rain comes the sun Don't you ever forget
Don't forget
Don't, don't forget
One day there will be no more pain And we will finally see Jesus' face So until then I'm gonna try To brave the dark And let my little light shine
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Gonna let it shine
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
Gonna let it shine
Oh, shine
Gonna let it shine
There's a little light inside us all
This is old news now haha But yesterday TONY NOLAN left me a facebook comment!!!! It was verrry encouraging and super awesome, totally made my day :) A personal message from one of my favorite speakers/authors, um yes please!! haha Guess he just saw my posts and felt the need to write and tell me to keep it up!! Absolutely. Completely. AMAZING! haha I first heard of Tony at Winter Jam '07 (L.I.F.T bracelet:) and he really spoke to me that night!! (that was a life changing night for me...thats when I really felt God calling me to adopt someday...another story, but completely awesome night:) and I know Ive posted quotes from him on here TONS over the past year of having my blog..he is just soo inspiring! Completely on FIRE for God!! His book "Hurt Healer" is simply amazing. You should most def check it out. :)
Lately I am being reminded (lots) of a dream I had a few months back.......I NEVER get caught up on dreams. My dreams 99.9% of the time invovle things that have happened in my week or that I have talked about...usually its pretty funny to hear my crazy dreams then to piece them together haha. But this one has taken hold of me. I know it might sound a lil silly...but I believe God is trying to use it to tell me something. I am just not sure WHAT....I cant seem to get it out of my head or to figure out what it means. But it was most def of importance. Its not a very plesant dream...and makes me very sad as well as afraid. I may post about it in more detail in time, but for now....just bloggin about whats bothering me AND asking for prayers. As this image is sorta 'haunting' me all during my days lately...I cant seem to 'let it drop' like I want too.
Also, asking for prayers for a dear friend of mine.
When Jesus is your treasure
you don't count the cost,
you consider the love.
-Matt Evans
last night I was listening to EpicFailPart1 from the series I've missed at RB...and WOW!!! God spoke sooo strongly to me thru that entire message. I cant wait to catch up on Parts2-4!!!! :)
"And so each of us shall give an account of himself
[give an answer in reference to judgment] to God."
Romans 14:12
We crave acceptance, therefore criticism and judgment are hard on us mentally and emotionally. The fact is--it hurts! But confronting the criticism and judgment of other people becomes easier when you remember that ultimately it is before your own master you stand or fall (see Romans14:4). In the end you will answer to God alone.
Criticism and judgment are the devil's tools. He uses them to stop people from fulfilling their destiny and to steal their liberty and creativity. Paul did not allow the opinions of others to change his destiny. In Galatians 1:10 he said if he had been seeking popularity with people, he would not have become an apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ. This statement contains important wisdom. How can we succeed at what God has called us to if we are overly concerned about what other people think??
**Devotion I just read for tonight. Blows my mind. Thank you Joyce Meyer. And thank you Father, for loving me so so much..and speaking to me in the midst of a raging storm.
I've been in a 'rap' mood all day haha I loooove these songs! Im gonna finally break down and buy me some Trip Lee and Lecrae songs!! They are pretty much awesome :)
