Mountain Tops.

See this mountain?

I've been on top of it.

That tallest peak.....

I've stood on it.

And can I say...this is a blog I have been wanting to write for some time now. But finally have too strong a heavy heart for it to not say what I have to say. It was January of this year. The most perfect day. As we climbed this mountain (in a vehicle of course:) I remember being so so sooo scared. I was afraid of getting stuck, afraid of crashing off the side of the mountain haha, afraid of getting into trouble for just being there...I was so adamant about wanting to turn around and go back down. And I am being 100% honest when I say that when I got to the top of this mountain.....it was the most beautiful thing I have EVER seen. I cried I was so overwhelmed with awe. I've been on mountain tops before. I've been up Grassy and Fort Mtns 1,000 times. But this one was different. It was different bc while standing on that point (bc its all cleared off) you can see EVERYTHING. You can spin in circles and see for as far as forever in ALL directions...trust me, I know bc I did this. There seemed to be no other point on earth higher than where we were standing. You could see other mtns and they all looked so small. It seriously was the most amazing thing I have ever seen with my eyes. I drive by this mountain (that first picture is my view) every single week day for over three years and since the day I came down off that mountain, I've dreamed of the day I would be able to be back there. That was in January. Before I lost my best friend. Before I lost an entire family that was apart of my heart just as much as my own. And before the word cancer ever meant anything to me. These last few months I've longed to have that moment of awe back...that happiness back...that part of my life back. But God has used this scene to speak wonders to my heart.......this is life. Sometimes you are on flat ground living the daily life..and sometimes you will be on top of the mountain...but sometimes you will be deep in the valley. But in it all, God is still God and He is still good. I may never again step foot on that mountain...and I may never again have all that I had back on that day. But I do still (and will always) have my Savior. And if I have nothing else for as long as I live...that's all I need. It's amazing what God is doing in my heart and in my life. And its amazing at what this simple scene in nature means to me. God's love is unconditional and never ending...that same God that I felt so amazed and in awe over on that mountain top...I feel even more in this valley.

some pictures from the top.

its funny...as scared as i was to go up and as bad as i wanted to turn around...it turned out to be the most beautiful thing ive experienced. imagine if i had given into my fears and turned around?? :)