I am not skilled to understand..

"I am not skilled to understand What God has willed, what God has planned. 

I only know at His right hand, Stands one who is my Savior" 

♥ 

This song was a song God used about 6yrs ago to speak to me in a way that no other song had before. I was struggling with something that I hadn't yet had to deal with and was constantly crying out "I don't understand!" with my oh so little faith...turns out, not much has changed. Every time I've heard that song over the past 6yrs I've rejoiced in the way God used it to move me. Its not played a whole lot anymore so its a pleasant surprise when I hear it &leaves me all warm inside. Well, as I sit here at my computer working on pictures I've got Air1 playing in my ear as to not get distracted (so easy for me to do! haha) but just as I'm editing away, this song came on. It hit me like a smack PUNCH  in the face just how much I'd been crying out lately (still in my oh so little faith) "I don't understand!!!!!" and ya know what?! WE'RE NOT SKILLED TO UNDERSTAND!!!!! As I've stated on here a million times, my favorite Bible verse is Proverbs3:5-6 that says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths"....and He TELLS me not to lean on my own understanding! Bc I DON'T understand it all!! But I'm called to trust Him! The one who died to be my savior! That is so easy to forget in today's world!!! With SO much going on, its easy to focus on ANYTHING but that verse and God and His promises!!! But tonight, I'm grateful beyond words for that song. Those lyrics. And most importantly, the God who loves me enough to give me those little 'punches in the face' to help me realize He is still God and He is still in control!!!!