God chills.

I've had an absolutely amazing Friday!! Lovely day with Copper and Stone (who didn't have school today and got to spend the whole day w/us!:) and then a super sweet photo shoot after work! (check my IG or my Facebook!) AND....I yet again saw God show up in a mighty way!!!! An answered prayer today at Daddy's doctors appointment! This exact time last year I was dealing with three very important/life altering things in my life. Three things that looked and seemed completely hopeless. Three things that, at the time, were the worst things I had ever faced. I eventually (after what most ppl don't know...extreme anxiety and a few months of depression) laid those things down (only with God's strength and power) and gave them to Him. He took all three of those situations and seriously turned ashes into beauty in a way that I've never seen before!! My heart still tumbles and flutters thinking about His amazingly good works. And last night I went to bed with three more very important/life altering things on my heart. These three things are actually more important to me than those of last year....but oddly enough, I wasn't as fearful. Three new issues that are more scary than anything I've faced before, and I can cling to the work that God did in my life last year. How thankful I am for last year! I've tasted and seen how good He truly is and so last night, I was yet again able to lay it down and just simply rest in His promises and His peace. And this morning I wanted to run and 'pick those worries back up' (so to speak) but I again remembered last year, and it wasn't hard for me to lay them back down and walk in faith today. I'm learning that I may 'LEARN' something, but walking with God is a daily thing. I won't ever have it 'perfected' and He won't be perfected in me, until He comes again. (Philippians1:6) So I'm ok with laying it down daily. Or a million times a day, as I need to some days. Bc I'm reminded of His goodness, His promises, and how he changed my life last year!! :) I won't go into the other two issues that are on my heart tonight, but I will share just as small piece of one of them with you and how God worked and showed up today! :)

Daddy would beat me if he knew I was talking about him on here haha But he has started to get discouraged the last week or two and lost his motivation...he has said stuff about 'giving up' or how 'the doctors can't do anything else for me'....and that I never want to hear coming from anyone, but especially my Daddy. And as his daughter, that has been so very hard to watch and hear him talk about. As I've been praying for this dr appt today and a good report (we won't get results back til next week), I also was praying that God would help motivate my dad again. Help him be positive once again. I've seen it too many times with cancer patients when they loose the motivation to fight and it just takes a turn for the worse. The thought of that has paralyzed me with fear. I have been praying that God would provide that confidence and hope for him... And today at Dad's appointment he ran into an old friend. A guy who he met while he lived out in CALIFORNIA! :) And this man (who is older than my dad) told him all about how he had been fighting his cancer for three years, and how he's had his bad days, and how he's feeling better now than the whole time since he was diagnosed. Whatever else they talked about, Daddy left the drs office completely positive and full of hope for his own situation. Tell me how this man, who my daddy met in California, was there at Daddy's doctors office. At the same time as him today. Fighting cancer. And talking in such a way to motivate my daddy and give him hope. A complete God thing!! And I'm STILL getting God chills over it!! I know I seem to ask for prayers a ton...but its only because I see the power in it. I saw it last year and I'm seeing it every single day as God continues to show up for me when I ask (and of course, even in things I didn't even know I needed to ask for!:) So first, thank you all SO very much for all the prayers for me and my family!!! And second, I want to challenge you to be bold and ask God to show up for you and in your situations!!! He can and He will!! And also, don't be afraid to ask others to join in and be prayer warriors with/for you!!! Love you all!! And thank you again!!! I could never truly express just how thankful I am for my own prayer warrior friends and family.

"He's got this".. God's provision is amazing.

Life is uncertain. Every single detail about it. Every moment comes w the ability for things to change. Good change or bad change. There's a saying "change is the only constant"...in this life, that's how it goes. Change is a constant...But Jesus is MY Constant. And I can look back and see Him in the smallest of details in my life and I'm blown away that "wow God, you were in THAT!?" ....Disappointments, struggles, failures, setbacks.. I can look back at those and SEE how He was in that. It's life changing. It's eye opening. It's refreshing. And when I have a moment where I see that God was in something and how he worked so amazingly in his awesome provision and brought me to something better and something HE himself guided me to...it leaves a smile on my heart. To know that he loves me enough to do that is incredible. But to know he's been doing that my whole life and he won't stop.."He's got this"  has never felt more true. He does have this. All of this. And on days when I feel he has turned his head the other way for a second or feel that he maybe couldn't use "this/that" or wouldn't want to be in the small details of this problem/that decision or whatever....I'm reminded that YES!!!! He DOES want to. And yes, He IS in it!!! I've just got to step back, lay it at His feet and let HIM do what he wants. Even if I have to do it afraid. Afraid of change. Afraid of what's happening. But no longer afraid that he can't take care of it and no longer afraid that He doesn't have MY best in mind. So today I'm doing it afraid. God, take my "this" and do what you want with it!