Thoughts from a deer stand...

I went deer hunting yesterday and I can't tell you how much I love love LOVE sitting in the middle of the woods alone waiting and watching. It's four plus hours of quiet time in God's creation. Even if I didn't carry a gun and didn't want to kill a deer, I'd still go hunting! haha. There is nothing else like it. Every time I go I learn something new about my Creator or something new He reveals about me and my life. Yesterday I caught myself singing "How great is our God" in my head and then was overwhelmed at the thought that I don't have to ask God for anything...He already knows my every need. Sounds like a simple, obvious truth. But it's one I tend to forget often. With so much going on in my life right now, I feel almost overwhelmed with all the prayer requests both for my life and for those around me that I lift up in prayer. Sometimes I have SO much to pray for that I don't even know how to pray or what to pray for. It can be exhausting. So when I was singing that and I saw all the birds and squirrels scurrying around it hit me in the face that He knows exactly what we need and WHEN we need it. If He takes care of the birds and the squirrels and even the trees and the plants...how much more will He care for us? :) The reason we pray isn't to tell Him what we need. Or to suggest what we think He should do for us....but instead, we pray because it shows faith. It shows that we are trusting Him, the source from where all good things come. And I can't tell you what that simple truth did in my heart yesterday. I will certainly still be praying for all the many many requests that me and those around me have...but now I can rest more in prayer. Reminded that it isn't (and wasn't ever) up to me and my many words or how many times I bring it to Him or even my actions... But that I take it to my Savior because I'm trusting Him to work it all out for the best for those who love Him. Thankful tonight for a Savior who is restless in His pursuit for me and who's love is endless. 

Hiatus.

I am currently on a hiatus from Facebook. My heart has been super heavy lately, with so much going on in my life. I believe Facebook was taking up too much of my time, so I decided that I needed to part with it for a while. It's been four days and along with way less drama ;) I already have so much more free time! Time I now use to pray. Or to just sit and reflect on God. Or to think. Or just to listen. I have felt the urge to blog lately, but not real sure what to blog about...I have so much running through my heart and my head that I am not sure what I would even say in a post haha But I believe that the more I'm away from Facebook and the more time I have to talk to God and to journal that my blogging will (finally) be back in full swing. I don't want to use my blog to update my life. After all, isn't that what Facebook was for?? haha But I do want to use it to pour my heart out...I learned two years ago that when we are real, open, honest and raw with our lives and our feelings, that it causes our pains and hurts to be used to glorify God. And in turn, they're not wasted. I believe with my whole heart that this is how God wants us to live. Open and honest with each other. And Facebook?? I started feeling like it was a front. That almost everyone on there wanted you to see how great things were and how perfect their lives are. I know better. I'm not saying none of my fb friends were happy and loving life...but I believe most people put on their "everything's fine" face and only show the good. I know I did. And without even meaning to or knowing I was doing it. It's just easier to show how great things are...even when they aren't so great.  And I don't want that to me be. I want people to know me and my heart and not just know me by a picture and my latest status update. I'm not saying I won't return to Facebook, but I want to  try relationships and life without it for a little while. Not trying to make anyone feel bad for having a Facebook, I had mine for seven years! haha And like I said, I may return someday. But this is my personal conviction and I am excited to spend more of my time invested in more important things. So I'm asking those of you that will, to pray for me as I enter into this new season and pray for my blogging too...I want to get my heart open again to be able to share all the things God is doing in there! :) Thank you for taking time to read my posts. I have 13,000 plus views on here and I haven't even been blogging the past year or so! It amazes me the amount of people that care to read what I have to say. I am completely honored and I want everyone to know its all for Him and all about Him! Praying you each have a wonderful weekend. Lots of love! And God bless you all!