everything's going to work out.

Ok so this happened a week or so ago but I thought of it again tonight and felt lead to share. God's love & presence is just so amazing..well, amazing doesnt seem like 'enough'...I mean, there are no words for it really! It honestly leaves me speechless somedays. But anyway, here's what happened.....

As some know, Ive been going through a really REALLY rough time in my life. Its a season of my life that has broken me. That has brought on pain and heartache. That is extremely difficult for me, possibly the most difficult yet. BUT its also a season that I know I must go through. I know God brought me to this season of my life. And I know He did it for a reason. For my good. For His glory. And maybe for reasons that I havnet even learned of yet.

But one night (a night when everything had caught up w/me) as I was completely broken before Him, literally bawling my eyes out...there were no words..just hurt. I needed Him, His presence, His help. I grabbed my Bible and started reading in Psalm. I opened it to Psalms and flipped through to pick out a chapter...it opened on chapter 20 so I started reading. I got to verse 5 when I stopped, as I wasnt 'getting' it. I wasnt focused on His Word, but still on my pain..my doubt..my confusion. And so I prayed something like this: "God, please still the storm within me..speak to me. Give me wisdom. Clear my mind and heart of EVERYTHING that is in me that isnt of you. Speak to me. I need you" And this...(still gives me chills!)..was the very next verse I read:

"That clinches it-help's coming,

an answer's on the way,

everything's going to work out."

-Psalm 20:6

I mean really?! THAT I think, made me cry harder than I was before!! haha I mean, wow. SPEECHLESS. He listens. He cares. He's there. He's our help. He's our shield. He loves us. And OH HOW HE LOVES US!!!!

When this 'season' started I was mad. I was hurt. I was angry. I was bitter. I hated it. Everything about it. But already, now that Im focusing on HIM and remembering the TRUTH..seeing that He is moving and He really DOES do things to glorify Himself and to grow us and change us. I can honestly say that not only do I not hate this time...I am THANKFUL for this time. God, I love how you work. I love Your mysterious ways. I love how You LOVE!!!!!! :) I just HAD to share this. I hope it blesses some of you as much as it did me!!