Goodbye 2010..

"We've been so much more
thankful for what we have,
because of what we almost lost"
-Matt Hammitt♥

2010. Im not really sure what to say about this year...or how I feel about it. Bc there are soo many different feelings toward it. It was definately an eventful year for me. God used it to change and shape me in many different ways. A lot of ways I was far from happy about, but after seeing His work...I am thankful for every single bit of it. I turned 25 this year. And for some reason I had a REALLY hard time with that. (Ok, this blog is another open&honest blog from April that may/may not leave you saying 'whhhaat?!' lol depending on how well you know me:) I am not one to get 'depressed'...but I think it was the realization of I'm getting old...and that none of the things that APRIL had planned to be, were in existence. I had all these 'plans' for my life and they included things such as graduating college, teaching, traveling the world, being married, and being a mommy. I was  being down on what I didn't have and not looking AT ALL to what all God HAS blessed me with. Bc in reality, I'm not ready for ALL of those things right now. Obviously. Bc God knows that too, which is why they've not happened yet. (It's all on His perfect timing!) It was just the age number that made me THINK I was missing out on those things. I very verry quickly learned to never take for granted all that you DO have and to stop looking at all the things you don't. Shortly (very shortly) after my 25th birthday my life started to change in ways that I wasn't the least bit prepared for. I lost 4 pets within a week of each other, one being one of my favorite cats in all the world. Smokey. He was mine from just a few wks old, another one I cared for and bottle fed and raised. He was the most loving cat. And was soooo pretty!!!! Chad found him at his work with two other kittens (that I also raised..one I gave to my little cousins the other just disappeared earlier in the year..) but Smokey was my favorite. He was always dying for attention, which he got LOTS of. He would climb your leg just to get you to pick him up. Never met a cat like him before. He had his own unique personality and I loved him soo much!!!! One rainy day Chad and I were heading to my house and came upon a cat laying lifeless in the road...it was my Smokey. At first I was sooo angry that I had to SEE it..that I had to KNOW what happened to him..he couldn't have just 'disappeared' like my other animals. I can't believe all the anger that flowed from me that day...But now Im thankful that I do know and that he got to be put to rest in a proper spot in my back yard, right next to the best most loving dog anyone could ever have. ♥

Just 2 weeks later I had my heart broken. Things had ended between me and my boyfriend..my best friend of 4yrs. Just in an instant. I can't describe the pain I experienced during the next 5 months. I solely got through bc of my Lord and Savior!!! Not sure I've expressed in detail about those days on here but it was nothing short of God and His love that got me through that time. From the outside I'm sure I looked fine and looked like the always happy April. But it hurt to be awake. My entire body hurt from the inside...I honestly don't know how to put into words the amount of saddness that I felt. My very best friend had been removed from my life all together and some days I couldn't breathe it hurt so bad. I turned to God and knew (clung to the promise) that He had me in His hands and that I was going to be ok. I have NEVER had to rely on faith so much before. I had prayed about this relationship years ago, before ever entering into it, and God gave the green light. So to have had this happen to me was sooo confusing. I was starting to doubt, and way too much. But I continued to lean on and trust in Christ and knew that things would work out for ME the way that He wanted them too. No matter what. Two weeks after the breakup I was out driving (one thing I do to clear my head and just be alone) and started to get down on all that had become of my life in just the past few weeks. I was driving, crying and talking to God. Then, I passed a house in my neighborhood with a sign stuck on the mail box that said "free kittens" and I almost pulled in. I literally sat in the road debating on what to do haha...Thinking a cute furry kitten was just what I needed :) But instead I decided to wait..mainly bc my parents would KILL ME if I showed up with ANOTHER animal lol! But after passing the driveway I prayed out loud in my car something just like this "Ok, God if YOU want me to have a kitten, then YOU will put one in my path. Nothing/nobody can stop THAT...so if You want me to have one, Im trusting You'll make it happen, and You'd send just the right kitten" :) That very night I was sitting on my couch watching Grey's Anatomy and my Dad walked in the front door and said "would you come here a minute..Ive got something to show you" and to my suprise I walked around my house to see a stray cat with TWO baby kittens in our flower garden!!!!!!! I almost hit the ground in awe!! lol It was one of those 'God moments' when you get those 'God chills'! :) And a few wks later something happened to one of the kittens annndd long story short, I adopted the other kitten when she was 2 1/2 wks old. I kept saying how much she looked like my Smokey and that he was probably the daddy, hence why momma cat was hanging around my house. But now that she is 7months old, I know without a shadow of a doubt that she IS Smokey's baby. THAT is why God had me wait...he sent me the most perfect kitten in the whole world!! AND she is sooo much like Smokey in so many ways. I swear its like its the same cat sometimes. She has his personality plus a lil prissy-ness hahaha She greets me every day when I pull into my driveway and get out of my car, just like a dog haha She loves me so much!! She is the most treasured animal and I love her with all my heart and still thank God for her every single day!! She is also a reminder to me that GOD's ways are perfect!!!!! ♥ 

This summer was insanely crazy for me. (Baby Kitty helped me keep MY sanity) I experienced sooo much. I swear at the time I described it as drowning slowly. The water was rising and I was going under and I didnt know how to stay afloat. In the summer alone I knew 15people who passed away. I literally was at the funeral home almost every week for I don't know how long. THAT spoke to me in volumes. It had me thinking. A LOT. And doubting things yet again. I was so torn by this world and the things of it, yet clinging helplessly, as if my life depended onit (and it did) onto my God. And He made a way!!!!!!! ♥

 Chad and I (the ended relationship) had started talking again midsummer, bc we couldn't just not know how the other one was...I'm telling you, true best friends always work things out. And after talking, some things came out in the open that left me speechless. Lots of things. Things that I didn't know how to deal with. We knew we'd always remain friends...thats just who we are. We were the best of freinds for a whole year and a half before things progressed into a relationship. Even then we couldn't go but a few days without talking to each other. There's a bond between us that can't be broken. We have always been drawn to each other like something I can't explain and even if we weren't together, we'd still be there for each other and care for and love each other. Always. So as time went on I had to learn to be open to all that was coming from this. (And there was LOTS!) He means the world to me and so does his happiness...and I know it's the same on his end. As the next few months rolled by..(slowwwwly for me) things changed with us and it was evident that we just weren't happy being apart. We (GOD) changed so much about ourselves in those 5months and both grew up. We prayerfully decided to give us another shot. And it still blows my mind at all that God did and used during this whole process. He DOES use it all...even the BAD & the UGLY!!! I've had to learn to forgive on a level that I never wanted to...and I'm still learning to an extent (bc I believe forgiveness has to start in the heart but sometimes it too much for us and God has to help you along the way). A certain 'situation' that has sort of always been there for us was finally put to rest. THAT too was all part of God's plan...whether we like it or not things have to happen sometimes to bring better things along!!! And I'm soo thankful God knows it all!!! We both are so much more respectful of each other and our relationship this time around. The quote at the top sums up all of my year. Something changes inside and you just become overflowed with thanks when you realize what can/might be taken away from you. And that isn't just in the sense of a relationship...lives can be taken. YOUR LIFE can be taken. You just never know what or who isn't going to be here tomorrow. It changes your whole outlook. ♥

 I got my first tattoo this year. (another 2010 moment). And it was bc of all the craziness. I have wanted a tattoo for about 2yrs now but nothing seemed fitting enough to get permantly put onto my body. But after the chaos that was most of my year, I was learning (trying to anyway) to give my plans and steps over to God. Bc never have I had such an eye opening experience before. THINGS DON'T ALWAYS GO AS YOU WANT THEM TO, OR AS THEY'RE PLANNED TO. BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE, ITS CALLED LIFE ON EARTH. I kept hearing God tell me over and over (reassuring me) that this place of death, loss and heartache isn't my true home. HEAVEN is my forever home. My eternal home with my Heavenly Father!!! THAT is what we were made for, not all of this!!!! And so as I kept clinging to that promise it became apparent to me that THAT is something worth remembering forever, not just during this season of my life. So I started praying about possibly getting something along those lines as a tattoo. NOTW was something that popped into my head and its actually a symbol for a company who I already loved (and own a ton of stuff from lol) but it stands for Not Of This World. One night debating the tattoo, I prayed for peace about it, bc I couldn't put something permantley on me w/out a peace about it (Im already the most indecisive person alive, so this was got to be an 'I know 100% this is what I'm suppose to get' kind of deal lol!) That very night my Bible study was on John17:14-17 and after the study I read all of Chapter 17 in my Bible and was completely blown away.

John17:16 says:
"For they are not of the world,
just as I am not of the world"

..and all of chapter 17 moved me to tears...as Jesus, knowing what was about to happen to himself, prayed for others!!!!! AND this ISN'T my home!!!! We have a better, perfect, place prepared for us if we will just stick it out, waiting on and trusting in, following and loving our Creator!!!!! It just had me gripped and moved me soo much!! I knew right then, thats a PERFECT reminder to always have with me. :) So, a few days later (it might actually have been the next day haha I cant remember) I went and got my first tattoo. I have NOTW tattooed on my foot and its a constant reminder of all I've experienced and the true lesson that this world IS NOT my home. I LOVE it!! I've already been able to use it to share Christ and my story. Awesomeness!! :) ♥

Another awesome event I can say happened in 2010 is I was able to meet up with two of my long lost cousins. I've blogged about my cousin Andy before....but since his passing, things with his uncle and my aunt didnt work out and they divorced. He had two sisters who were also apart of our lives and we spent a lot of time together when we were little (my favorite was the going to mcdonalds memories:) and after the split we never heard from or saw them again. Well, that was probably 13yrs ago or so....the oldest, Kara, added me on facebook a few wks ago and I knew immediately when I saw the name on my friend request who it was. I, honestly, teared up a bit. I picked the phone up and called my mom immediately! I was so excited!!!! We talked later that night online and then her sister added me as well! My aunt has talked about those girls all this time and has wondered how they were....they shortly after, they added her on facebook and she was sooo ecstatic!!!! They both had wanted to check up on each other all this time!! They set up a lunch date and we all went and met up....God is sooo good. It simply leaves me in awe at the way He works!!!! ♥

Anyway, I know this post is extremely long and probably all over the place (thats my life for ya lol) but it feels really good to get it all out!! To tell the story of the craziest year of my life!!!! Well...most of it anyway. To let all others know that no matter how bad it gets, GOD IS IN CONTROL!!!! If you will just cling to and trust in Him, HE'LL SEE YOU THROUGH IT ALL!!!! I promise!!!! Here's to 2010 and all the tears, happiness, change, growing, molding and love that it brought me. And to 2011, a year that is destined to be amazing in itself bc I have a God that loves me and will NEVER leave me!!!!!!!!

Praying you all have a most blessed new year!!!!!!

Thanks for following me!!!! I love you all!!
God bless!!!
♥AW

I cant wait...

...we may finally be going somewhere that we've talked about going for 5yrs......bahahaha! My sweet boyfriend tries so hard, but his stupid schedule only allows so much lately. The past few yrs has been both our fault for not going, just different reasons...but this yr we SAID we were going then it didnt get to happen. But HOPEFULLY tonight is the night. :) If not..I honestly wouldnt care as long as we're together! Bc I miss him sooo much!!!!! (besides, there's always next yr...lol!) AND praying he gets tomorrow off...he just txtd me and told me its a possibility!!!! Prayinnnnnnggg!! ;) If so that means TWO days of hunting with my gun!!!! Whooo!!! And seeing his sweet face more! :)

THEN..its time to start planning our road trip! :) And we've already got a Cade's trip planned. Ahhh, I cant wait!! YAY!!! for the extreme craziness, that is Chad's work schedule, to be OVERRRRRR!!!!! Bring on the good times!!!!! :)

Happy Birthday Silly!!!!

Love,

Prilly :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Wishing my BEST FRIEND a fabulous BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

This girl is my God send...God crossed our paths at the

most perfect time!! JUST when He knew we'd need it!!!

She is 'my person'! I go to her with everrrrything and

know she'll always listen whether Im happy, crying,

venting, or just rambling! :) There's not but a verry

few ppl I trust w/all that haha So here's to my sheltering

sh tree!!! :) Hope its the best Farmer-Bagley!!!

 I love you!!! ♥

prayer request.

Please pray for my brother.

also for the Bryant family and for the Evans family.

God knows the people involved and the situations.

Thank you soo much for joining me in praying for

these families!!! Loves-AW

It's So Fluffy!!

another favorite from the movie..not sure which is my favorite, but

it gets me EVERY time!!! hayneslie can say this and it sounds JUST

like the little girl!!!! hahaha!!! ive made her say it a million times!! lol

she cracks me up!!! 

Whaaat?!

one of my favorite clips from one of my all time favorite movies!! :)

im pretty sure the girls had me rewind and watch this scene

AT LEAST 30 times! lol and to hear them reenact it is my

f.a.v.o.r.i.t.e!! :)

Beautiful by MercyMe.

heard this for the first time this am on the

way to work....im absoultely lovin' it!!!!

Oh my...

what i would give to have this kind of

clothes wearing weather again, RIGHT NOW!!!!!

I have never been one to want to move away from home..

Georgia is my home. I love my home. BUT more and more

Im HATING winter......I could completely live at the beach

year round and visit GA and the MTNS up north for vacation

instead of the other way around.......if only my family and friends

would come with me....then it'd be a done deal!! :)

Im pretty sure...

I cracked a rib.

Im in sooo much pain. ugggh.

It feels broken..but Im sure its

just cracked and Im being a

baby about it haha all I know

is Chad picked me up to pop

my back (like he always does..

I live for my back pops lol) and

something popped in the front

and almost brought me to my

knees....ugggh, pleeeease get

better soon, whatever is wrong..

shoesssss.

Peyton and the 18!! hahaha!!

Chad's foot is HUGE (14/15) so when

I saw this shoe in the window I

flipped..knew it had to be ginormous! lol

Peyton flipped too and wanted his pic w/it ;)

matching socks. :)

Hay and I had matching socks this day...by complete accident.

she was sooo excited! lol

snow! :)

December 27, 2010

clearing off some cell pics..this was out grace's bedroom window on monday! :)

♥

My Crazy White Christmas Wknd... :)

My Christmas wknd was pure awesomeness!!! Friday-Chad got off from UPS early(ier than normal) and came over and exchanged gifts with me..we always do ours Christmas Eve due to crazy schedules on Christmas day, and Christmas Eve is OUR day for the most part. Ive already posted what I got, but I have to say again how amazing Chad is!!! I love love LOVE my presents sooo much!! And HIM!!! We spent all day Friday together (2 1/2hrs of it in Verizon getting him his new Droid X...hahaha) and had a wonderful time together! Soo grateful to have him to spend this holiday with this year!!!! Saturday-Woke up to a WHITE CHRISTMAS!!!!! It was the very first time EVER that Ive gotten to have a white Christmas!! Ive wished for that every single year up until about 2yrs ago when I started 'hating' the stuff lol I dont REALLLLY hate it, I just hate how dangerous it makes everything. If I were in the mtns on vacation somewhere it'd be awesome to just have nothing to do but go out and play in it & take pictures. But thats not how it works...at least not when you grow up and everyone has jobs and such haha. But I have to say, I was a lil moved to look out my window and see it falling down ALL DAY on Christmas day!! It was beautiful, just amazing!!! I got lotttts of awesome presents from my familia & Santa too!!! ;) [ex: a new polaroid camera!!! pretty clothes!! shoes!! giftcards!! and money!!] Christmas was wonderful, sooo blessed to have my family and Chad with me and all healthy! There have been sooo many stories the past few days&wks about lost loved ones and being sick on Christmas...just awful. Heartbreaking. I am so grateful to have had all my family and friends healthy and here w/me (even if they werent actually WITH me) see..Saturday didnt go as planned BC of the snow....I didnt get to go to Chad's in the afternoon like we planned, to spend time w/his family bc I couldnt get out of my house and we didnt get to see my brother and sisters and their families at all this Christmas.....no one could make it due to weather conditions. I HATE that....we'll have to schedule a post Christmas dinner or something SOON! Bc Christmas isnt Christmas w/out family...THEN toward the evening Chad had HIS family coming over and he couldnt leave bc they were doing their thing so he ended up having to leave them for a while later on so we could see each other Christmas day....it all went kinda crazy and left everyone everywhere a lil stressed, I do believe...no fun. BUT this WHITE CHRISTMAS was a huuggge deal here, so you cant have it all I guess. But Saturday night he finally made it over and we watched Despicable Me with my mom, dad, Lucky and Patrick...the 5th time I'd seen it lol (Tosha got it for the girls last wknd and we watched it Monday at their casa when I kept them, then again Tuesday 2times haha! and then Wednesday lol!)  It is one of my all time favorites tho! Soooo stinkin cute!! Then bedtime. Sunday- hung out at home, naps=amazing. :) Then to the movies and dinner w/my love. How Do You Know....is weird. It wasnt horrible, but it wasnt great either. Actually, Im still not sure how I liked it lol I was disappointed though. But thats my wknd in a nutshell. Soo blessed. And soo happy. Thank you Lord for ALL you are, ALL you've done, and ALL you've yet to do!!!!!! I love you!!!!! :)

Praying you all also had a wonderful Christmas with those you love!

December 26th 2010

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December 26th 2010

it was sooo stinkin cold!!!

December 26th 2010

before going to dinner and a movie.

More Snow Pictures...

My First White Christmas!!!!♥

playing out in my new gear. :)

my chunky baby! we're not sure yet if she has

babies in there or if she just reallllly loves to eat.. :)

my baby giving kisses!! she LOVED the snow!

she played in it like ellie (my DOG) did when

she first saw it!! LOL! she is so funny!

Born in Bethlehem♥

lovelovelove!!!!

..given for all men, for today the Holy

Son of God is born in Bethlehem!!!!!

Here With Us♥

"It's still a mystery to me, oh,
How His infant eyes have seen the dawn of time
How His ears have heard an angel's symphony,
But still Mary had to rock her Savior to sleep"

one of my all time favorite (non-traditional) Christmas songs!!

I'll post the other one next.. :) Both have amazing lyrics!

Soo powerful!! ♥

Remington♥

my awesome new gun!! remington 770 243!!! my very own gun!!!

and you cant see it very well but he put on my pink camo sling too!

ahhh!!! i love it so much!!! :) and im sporting my new pink and

camo jacket that tosha and cliff got me!! buuut now thanks to all

this white stuff outside, looks like i wont be going in the woods

tomorrow... :( maybe we can go next saturday, its the last day!! :(

but dont you wish your boyfriend was as awesome as mine..hehe!!

Christmas Eve..

...the perfect time to take a nap...hehe

Chad's gonna kill me for posting..but I had to! :) We WERE watching a movie w/my mom and dad but thanks to UPS hours (that I too seem to be on lately lol) we passed out around 9! LOL! Not sure how long we were out but mom and my superrr bright flash made sure we woke up REAL fast...haha! Too bad you cant tag these pictures...we have here Chad's new toy (the Droid X! Jealous! I was sup to get one today too but they wouldnt let me....maybe next time.) And my awesomely pretty (and super comfy) jacket that Chad's parents got me!! AKA my pillow! LOL! And I love my left hand...not sure that smooshed up and crazy crookedness was too comfortable haha but must have been bc I was TKO! Ah, I loovee Christmas! :)

I have....

...the most amazingly, awesomely, wonderful, sweetest, BEST boyfriend in the whole entire world!!!!!! Having him in my life again is already more of a gift than anything I could have ever asked for!!! He makes me sooo extremely happy and to have him by my side during this wonderful time of year, makes me swell with happiness inside!!! He went waayy overboard this Christmas on me though! (Making me feel like my presents to him were junk! lol) He bought me a Remington 770 243!!!!!!! I had no idea what I was getting, he's kept it such a great secret (so proud hehe) and been so excited to give it to me so its been driving me crazy trying to figure out what it was...neverrr would have guessed he'd get me THIS!! Although I hate he spent that much money on me, I LOOOVEEE it soooo much!!!! My first gun, ever!!! :) I cant use his (my dad's old gun) bc the stock is too long (apparently I have short arms lol) so Ive been using Lucky's old gun (from when she was 8...bahaha!) But this one is P.E.R.F.E.C.T.!!! Its beautiful AND I can acutally hold it!!! :) I cant wait to get it sighted in and shoot it! And hopefully kill my first deer with it! (although, that'll prob have to wait til next year bc hunting season ends very soon :( now I take back all my 'hurry and end' stuff Ive said about the season lol!) He also got me a box of ammo ANNND a PINK camo sling for it!!! :) How stinkin awesome is he!?  Oh, and he also got me the pink bone collectors hat Ive been wanting for a year but havent been able to buy yet bc they only sell it online..He is so sneaky! His parents got me the pink camo jacket that Ive been longing for also!! My oh my!!!! Tosha, now that I know you read my blog...haha THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!! I LOVE YOU!! (I posted it on here as a WANT and she saw it!:) I am soo ready for the woods now! No more looking, feeling and walking like a marshmellow in Chad's jacket...LOL! Chad also got me a sweeet wooden heart (he's always gotten me little hearts randomly over the years...I cant wait to have a house to put them in one day..they're all so great!) And Tosha and Cliff (Chad's parents) also got me a cross candle holder made of railroad ties!! It. Is. Beautiful!! There are many many great pictures to be posted!! :)

Ahhhh!!!!

It is present time!!!!! Chad is headed over to exchange gifts...Im sooo excited!!! We always do ours on Christmas Eve..switching houses each year. Ahhh!!!!!! I can hardly wait! ;)

love love!!

Jeremy + Kylee + A Bicycle from Lilly McDowell on Vimeo.

ahhh! love!!!

makes me looong for summer!!!

love!

Tyler and Lindsey's Story from Lilly McDowell on Vimeo.

love this!!!

sooo sweet!!!!

i'll def have something like this one day :)

chad and i already have the "who's gonna cook/clean" stuff squared away lol

and CHAD is the one who remembers things...the man remembers what i was

wearing for all the important 'first' things...when i have no clue! haha! he always

pays attention to stuff...i looveee that about him!!! :)

friends.

favorite. show. everrrr!!!

Christmas in Camo♥

my two favorites....sooo stinkin cute!!!

Christmas my way... :)

Merry Christmas to all my followers...and the other ppl who looovee reading my blog but wont 'follow' me. (I know there are tons of you bc I get a thousand views a month and have 5followers lol...so, follow me:) I pray everyone reading this has a very merry, wonderful, blessed CHRISTmas!!!!!!!! Thanks for being awesome and caring about what I have to say. I love you all! ♥ 

fb status.

"UPS guy just dropped off another package - he said, "I don't mean to offend you but I've seen you more than my wife this week." Too, funny!"

yes, that was a friend of mine on facebooks status just now.....
oh what i have to look forward too one day. lol

whoa! ;)

oh my goshhhh!!!!! this looks just like my izzy (that chad got from his ex gf's house haha!) and my baby kitty (who is still being called 'my baby' at 7months old lol) i flipped when i saw this picture....it looks sooo much like them both....i miss my izzy so so much...even tho she was a devil cat lol and i miss my baby being that tiny......

It's Wednesday!!!!!!

I. have. made. it!!!!!!! After the longest 2wks of my life...its finally here! The day I get to see my love!!!! Oh my gosh, last Friday I didnt see him bc he was off getting my Christmas present :) And we only got Saturday and a lil time on Sunday together. This 'Christmas season schedule' has been killing me. Chad has been going into work between 1&2am (to help make sure everyone gets all their gifts in time:) and then gets off superrrrr late (usually its 8/9ish but lately its been 10/11!) so he rushes home and gets ready for his other job (that he's already late for). So no 'down time' to talk there. THEN he gets off that job at 6pm and by this time he's beyond exhausted and is ready for bed after he gets home and eats. Then it starts all over again. I have no boyfriend during the week anymore!!! *whaaaaa!!!* Its been so extremely hard on me, but I cant IMAGINE how hard its been on him...he's my hero!!!!! He's such a hard worker!! So dedicated!!! I love that about him!!!! As much as I hate that I dont see him (or talk to him lately), I DO find that trait extremely admirable in this man :) I get to see him tonight bc we have a dinner at my aunts house and he sooo kindly is going to come...and miss his bed time. All bc he loves me and misses me too!!!! Im off the rest of the week, but he has to work up until Friday. I cant wait until around 10am Friday morning...he will be free!!!! Then his Christmas can finally begin. I think I'll throw him a party!! haha He doesnt know it yet but my Christmas present is that 'holiday hours' will be over and I'll have a boyfriend again! lol!! He didnt have to buy my anything!!!! :) That and him being by my side this Christmas are the best presents I could everrrrr get anyway! ;) Yay for Wednesday..yay for Christmas dinners...and yay for having the hardest working, most dedicated, most wonderful, perfect boyfriend in the whole wide world!!!! ♥

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mmm...

oh my gosh, this reminds me of pcb!!! chad and i had hundreds of fish

swimming at our feet one day while we were out in the ocean and it

was incredible!!! we were looking for shells w/our goggles on hehe

and when we went down we realized all the fish that were there! i

would give anything to have gotten pictures of that moment. we took

turns going under and holding on to each others feet to just admire

all the lil guys swimming around us!!! :) it was soo awesome!!! then

chad, being ever so impressive caught one! haha! they werent the

least bit afraid of us.....ah, to go back to that moment. :) i cant wait

to be at the beach w/him again!!

♥

Letters & Charlie♥

[letters to juliet]

[charlie st. cloud]

the two movies my love brought me last night to watch with me, since i could barely get out of bed. he is the sweetest!! and these movies (although extremely girly) were pretty good!!!! charlie made me way more emotional than i expected haha and was a lil weird, but loved it! and letters was a lil cheesy but still super cute. the best part? spending the whoollleee time with my love!! i love that man more than words could ever express!!!! and wknds are never long enough. but Christmas is just days away!!!!!!! that means more time together!!!!! (it also means after Christmas no more stupid ups hours and we'll get to see each other a lil more during the wk too!!) and I. CANT. WAIT!!!! ♥

Viral Infection??

Dear Viral Infection,

I hate your stinkin guts.
Thanks for making me deathly ill all week.

I hope you are for real going away this time

and that you never EVER return.

Love,

AW

Holy cow, I can sit up again!!! haha Im blogging for what feels like the first time in forever. yay!! Yay, bc I have been in bed since wednesday with this 'viral infection'!!! (drs couldnt tell me exaclty what it was, so they just said 'yeah..its viral' oh ok, thanks. ugh!!!) It all started with a stupid scratchy throat. I thought it was a regular cold until my BACK AND RIBS started aching!!!! AWFUL!!!! Then the ridiculously high and constant fever for 3 days. And Thursday, I literally thought I was dying. The worst Ive ever felt in my entire life. My spine hurt and my headache was almost unbearable. For two straight days, I literally only got out of bed to pee. YUCK!!!!! Whatever the heck this is, Im praising the GOOD Lord for finally feeling better and not being in the hospital somewhere!!! I thought I was better yesterday but apparently my body was playing a sick joke on me bc it all started all over again. But today, I woke up headache, spineache and fever free!!!! lol However, bc I hadnt ate in 4 days my stomach hurt so bad I couldnt stand....or sit or lay w/out it killing me lol And nothing sounds yummy after all Ive been through but knowing I wouldnt feel any better if I didnt get SOMETHING in my stomach, quickly, I ate bread. Yes, bread has been my recovering agent. haha Im not ready for any 'real food' just yet, but I am up and walking around!!!! haha Thats saying a ton!! And now, Im waiting for the bf to get back and gonna make him watch girly movies all night long. hehe 

*thanks for all the well wishes and prayers on facebook and in txts!*

*praying you all have a wonderful, HEALTHY, blessed Christmas!!!!*

Never Grow Up-Taylor Swift.

i love love LOVE this song. brings lil tears every time...haha im such a baby.

btw, with the exception the one song...the rest of her cd is awesome.

just as i expected :)

Freedom.

Its true, with each passing day I fall more and more in love with you.
And you continue to make me happier and happier every single day!!!!!

You've been free. And now, Im finally free. Oh my gosh!!!!!!! Those words you finally spoke to me last night...were soooo liberating!!!! You have no idea how much I love you. :) I cant wait til you have one job, live waayyy closer, and we have our 82 animals and 15 kids hahaha!! Oh my gosh, now it can only keep getting better and better from here. There's nothing in the way anymore!!!! God is so good.     

♥

“Out of nowhere she told me when she grew up she wanted to marry me. I said, ‘Why me?’ And she looked up at me and said, ‘because, you are my anyway friend.’ At the time I didn’t know what that meant, so she had to explain to me that an anyway friend is the one person in your life who that no matter what they say or do, no matter what they’ve been through with you, they love you anyway.”

- Private Practice

♥♥

“No dreams can compare to
the reality I have with you.”

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“Real love is feeling like being a part of that person’s life almost isn’t enough. It’s more like a feeling that you would live in the same skin with them if you could and share every thought, heart beat, and emotion as one.”

-Rod Cannon

treehousesaremyfavorite.

so..is this not the coolest thing ever?? i came across this pic while looking for treehouses :) and was amazed when i found this one! i sent it to chad asking him if we could go and he said of course...coolest thing? its only FIFTEEN MINTUES away from where we have planned for our wknd road trip!!! ahhh!!! NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I WAS WHEN I FOUND THAT OUT!! hahaha! so, we will also be taking another route on our lil trip to see this insane place. oh hunting season, i do love you, but its time. well, almost haha

i always say...

Jan 2010

..i hate snow. buuuut, that wknd was sooo much fun. we had planned on going to the george strait concert in jan of this year but bc of the snow storm, it was postponed til april. we already had the hotel in gatlinburg so we went that wknd anyway. the roads werent bad (except up in the cove..which was closed. that part sucked) and gatlinburg was dead. no lines, no crowds, no traffic :) so we ended up having a blast that wknd anyway. we got out and rode around taking pictures at random places. so much fun. this first pic was us the night we got there, before bed we realized it was white outside so we went out and played in it haha and the bottom one was us outside of bubba gumps (favorite) when it was coming down really good and it was beautiful out. anyway, ive decided its not so much that i hate snow, its that i hate driving when the roads are even slightly bad (with a passion), and having family and friends having to get out and drive in it, and the fact that its cold haha but all in all, if its enough to close things down, enough to look pretty, the roads are still safe, and if im with the ppl i love most...then i guess its not so bad. :) and now, im wanting to escape to gatlinburg again. ;) 



Valentine - Kina Grannis.

such a cute video!

722♥

I am soooooo in love with my best friend!! ♥ I have had a perrrrrfect wknd. (wknds are always perfect though, bc its pretty much the only time Chad and I get to see each other...stupid work schedule!!! grrr.. haha) Friday night I had a ton of fun with some hilarious ppl (except for the getting sick part) I can not wait to do that again!!! Then Saturday after finally waking up, I went to Cleveland and had lunch (Jenkins=favorite!) with my long lost cousins!!!! Oh my goodness, I forever love facebook now! (take back all the bad things Ive said lol) Kara and Taylor, thanks sooooo much for friend requesting me!!! :) They're unlce used to be married to my aunt foreverrr ago and when I was um..12 or so they split and my aunt moved from Cleveland to GA w/us. We havent really seen them since. Pretty sad. Anyway, long story short, we never forgot about them and honestly JUST talked to Chad about them on Thanksgiving and me and my fam got to catch up w/them for a few on Saturday and it was soo awesome!! God is soo good!!! This morning Chad and I (ok, mostly Chad;) cooked a verrry yummy breakfast (saved us from having to go out in this stinkin awful cold) then we snuggled on the couch and watched GROWN UPS (one of my favorites!) while it snowed off and on all day. Not a fan of the snow at all....but it makes it MUCH better when you're snuggled up WARM and not out in it or driving in it. Blaaaahh! haha anyway, I am soo sooooo thankful for everyone in my life!!! And that I have my best friend back in my life again.....good gravy, he makes me soo stinkin happy. I hope everyone elses weekend was just as wonderful!!!!!!

this is post number 722. and THAT is a pretty special number ;)

Ugggghhh....

Have I ever mentioned that I HATEEEEE COLD WEATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my gosh!! One week of it and I am already sick!!! Someone please explain to me what it is that EVERYONE finds so flippin 'lovely' about the weather this time of year?! I could completely celebrate Christmas on a beach somewhere in the sun and be 100% happy. Who needs 30 degree weather, sweaters, snow and snotty noses??? NOT ME!! We went out last night (Tattoos!;) with Ryan, Leia, Kevin and Courtney and had a blast! Except I felt like death toward the end of the night.....I came home and took some Benadryl sinus stuff and Im still not sure if I like it. I felt like I died last night hahaha! I havent taken Benadryl since I was little and I gave in last night bc I was so desperate for SOMETHING. But I passed out and couldnt even MOVE all night long! And I will know later on (since I just woke up haha) if I like it and will take some more tonight lol Im praying it knocked this out for the most part. We are suppose to be going to ATL with Ryan and Leia tonight to celebrate Sarah's birthday....but this may not happen if Im not any better :(  Uggghhh, May..please hurry and get here. Thanks.

;)

Venting..

Just bc some of the world is a certain way doesnt mean I should have to change MY world bc of it. My Bible says its wrong....so I disagree with that lifestyle. BUT Im NOT going to be mean to you, teat you ANY different or judge you for it. HOWEVER, I shouldnt have to change my way of thinking, acting, talking, moving, BREATHING!! because of how YOU choose to live. What is wrong with our world today!?!?! We only want to stand up for certain things at certain times.....whenever the mood hits I guess. UGGGHH!!

bahahaha!!

totally just noticed my last two posts. change is good. and then hatin on facebook. hahaha!!! just cracked myself up haha the first post was totally about something different ;) i DO hate the fb change...sometimes, change sucks!!! ;) lol

hate.

its such a strong word. but i HATE the new facebook profile. facebook, im starting to dislike you more and more all the time.

c h a n g e

Jolee.

12.06.10

Spent the evening with Karlee and the kiddos last night after work and had a blast! And took some pretty awesome pictures!!! :) Its Jolee's first Christmas so Karlee asked me to write that on one of her photos...thought this one was tooo precious!! I cant believe Miss Jolee almost a year old already...I remember the pics last Christmas & we did belly shots w/the other girlies!! CRAZINESS! :) Anyhow, I'll surely be posting more pictures as soon as they're finished of this sweet sweet family :) 

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we were talking about this day just the other day and i just looked at the pics....this one

(&the editing) was from back in april. i want to do this again this year!! it was soo beautiful there!!!

pictures from last wknd..

the newest 'biggest leaf' haha we're always finding a

ton of huge leaves and this one now holds 1st place..

[oh & thanks to chad & his lovely jacket, i didnt freeze this day haha]

love love love!!!! takin' a break..eatin some cookies haha

lovin' my crazy hair haha! and im pretty sure chad was

still eating when i snapped this one lol but love us!! :)

i love this man sooo much!!!! ♥

latest addiction..

boneless wings from zaxby's.

haha ive never had them until yesterday. they. are. amazing! :)

♥

12.05.10

didnt get to go hunt this morning bc it was too windy. deer dont move when its windy. AND i freeze when its this cold haha we decided to take the girls next wknd too bc its STILL so stinkin cold & windy out! BUT we spend the whole day chillin and being lazy! :) now getting ready and gonna head to chads to watch eclipse with his familia!!

up in a tree...

where i spent my morning. i saw a buck, but didnt get a shot at him...slightly disappointed. now i may have to hunt again in the morning, alhtough i planned on sleeping in haha. i hunted for a little while by myself [like a big girl lol] but didnt care too much for it, its so much warmer when chad's beside me haha he's like a stinkin heater! lol but no deer today.....maybe tomorrow!!! we're taking the girls with us tomorrow evening!!!! i cant wait!!! they're gonna be sooo excited!!! :)

plannin' ;)

ive found the perfect places for our roadtripwknd!!!!!

oh my gooooodness!! i cant wait!! :)