a heart sooooo full!!!!!

ive always dreamed of a perfect love story...i'd watch movies and would dream about my own future love and all that i wanted and would feel when that person came along. but what i have now is unbelievable. it is sooo much better than any 'story'..its so much better than anything ive ever dreamed of in the past. we had it great before...before things went a little crazy..and then we lost time. but NOW...i am forever thankful that we lost those 5months if this is what it gave us!!!!! the love and respect we have for each other is just overflowing. i loved him before. ive always loved him. and i know he's always loved me. but lately, i feel like im on a love high haha i swear i feel my heart is gonna burst its sooo full, happy and loved. he treats me like ive never been treated before. he was always good to me, but he hasnt had the best track record for being mushy and sweet (not that thats a bad thing babe;) but lately he is killing me with sweetness!!!! :) and i LOOOVEEE it!!!!! [and now he's probably hating me for making him look like a big sweet soft teddy bear..hehe] but things in general are just soo much different now. a great different. a perfect, pinch-me-im-dreaming, different. we've both learned soo much and grown a ton!! i was just going through some of my old posts, from back over the summer, and it brought me back. back to a place of heartache, surrender, and brokenness. and i am so humbled now after reading all those things i posted and KNOWING then that God would pull me through, i could feel him doing it. but to know now, that this is what he pulled me through to. that makes me even more grateful. im moved to tears as i write this. our God is sooo good!!!!! he is always working for the good of those who love him. even when it feels like the exact opposite. i started this blog for a few reasons. i love to write. ive always written things down. [things that happen, things that move me, things that are important, things i dont want to forget] and a few yrs ago i started writing down truths that God has shown me, so that in time i could go back and re-read them. [[that is such a blessing btw. i encourage you to try it! i believe we all frequently need to be reminded of things like that..and i always find/reread them at the most needed time]] AND i love to share what all my Savior has done for me. and blogging was a perfect way of doing all of that. and today i am so glad i started this blog. even if im the only one who got anything from the 700posts haha. now that that season of my life is over, i will continue to post from my heart and share and show all that God is leading me into next..whatever that may be.
and im ready. :)  

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**cch, i love you with my whole heart :) and i am soo excited to take the rest of these adventures WITH you. you are the most amazing man i know. thank you for loving me the way you do!!! i couldnt have dreamed up a better best friend, love, or anyone more perfect for me than you. you bring out the best in me and fill me with such intense happiness. i am completely, forever thankful for the past 4 1/2yrs ive had with you. even the craziness that was the most part of 2010...bc its gotten us here. and here, everything is perfect.