Thoughts from a deer stand...

I went deer hunting yesterday and I can't tell you how much I love love LOVE sitting in the middle of the woods alone waiting and watching. It's four plus hours of quiet time in God's creation. Even if I didn't carry a gun and didn't want to kill a deer, I'd still go hunting! haha. There is nothing else like it. Every time I go I learn something new about my Creator or something new He reveals about me and my life. Yesterday I caught myself singing "How great is our God" in my head and then was overwhelmed at the thought that I don't have to ask God for anything...He already knows my every need. Sounds like a simple, obvious truth. But it's one I tend to forget often. With so much going on in my life right now, I feel almost overwhelmed with all the prayer requests both for my life and for those around me that I lift up in prayer. Sometimes I have SO much to pray for that I don't even know how to pray or what to pray for. It can be exhausting. So when I was singing that and I saw all the birds and squirrels scurrying around it hit me in the face that He knows exactly what we need and WHEN we need it. If He takes care of the birds and the squirrels and even the trees and the plants...how much more will He care for us? :) The reason we pray isn't to tell Him what we need. Or to suggest what we think He should do for us....but instead, we pray because it shows faith. It shows that we are trusting Him, the source from where all good things come. And I can't tell you what that simple truth did in my heart yesterday. I will certainly still be praying for all the many many requests that me and those around me have...but now I can rest more in prayer. Reminded that it isn't (and wasn't ever) up to me and my many words or how many times I bring it to Him or even my actions... But that I take it to my Savior because I'm trusting Him to work it all out for the best for those who love Him. Thankful tonight for a Savior who is restless in His pursuit for me and who's love is endless. 

Hiatus.

I am currently on a hiatus from Facebook. My heart has been super heavy lately, with so much going on in my life. I believe Facebook was taking up too much of my time, so I decided that I needed to part with it for a while. It's been four days and along with way less drama ;) I already have so much more free time! Time I now use to pray. Or to just sit and reflect on God. Or to think. Or just to listen. I have felt the urge to blog lately, but not real sure what to blog about...I have so much running through my heart and my head that I am not sure what I would even say in a post haha But I believe that the more I'm away from Facebook and the more time I have to talk to God and to journal that my blogging will (finally) be back in full swing. I don't want to use my blog to update my life. After all, isn't that what Facebook was for?? haha But I do want to use it to pour my heart out...I learned two years ago that when we are real, open, honest and raw with our lives and our feelings, that it causes our pains and hurts to be used to glorify God. And in turn, they're not wasted. I believe with my whole heart that this is how God wants us to live. Open and honest with each other. And Facebook?? I started feeling like it was a front. That almost everyone on there wanted you to see how great things were and how perfect their lives are. I know better. I'm not saying none of my fb friends were happy and loving life...but I believe most people put on their "everything's fine" face and only show the good. I know I did. And without even meaning to or knowing I was doing it. It's just easier to show how great things are...even when they aren't so great.  And I don't want that to me be. I want people to know me and my heart and not just know me by a picture and my latest status update. I'm not saying I won't return to Facebook, but I want to  try relationships and life without it for a little while. Not trying to make anyone feel bad for having a Facebook, I had mine for seven years! haha And like I said, I may return someday. But this is my personal conviction and I am excited to spend more of my time invested in more important things. So I'm asking those of you that will, to pray for me as I enter into this new season and pray for my blogging too...I want to get my heart open again to be able to share all the things God is doing in there! :) Thank you for taking time to read my posts. I have 13,000 plus views on here and I haven't even been blogging the past year or so! It amazes me the amount of people that care to read what I have to say. I am completely honored and I want everyone to know its all for Him and all about Him! Praying you each have a wonderful weekend. Lots of love! And God bless you all!

God chills.

I've had an absolutely amazing Friday!! Lovely day with Copper and Stone (who didn't have school today and got to spend the whole day w/us!:) and then a super sweet photo shoot after work! (check my IG or my Facebook!) AND....I yet again saw God show up in a mighty way!!!! An answered prayer today at Daddy's doctors appointment! This exact time last year I was dealing with three very important/life altering things in my life. Three things that looked and seemed completely hopeless. Three things that, at the time, were the worst things I had ever faced. I eventually (after what most ppl don't know...extreme anxiety and a few months of depression) laid those things down (only with God's strength and power) and gave them to Him. He took all three of those situations and seriously turned ashes into beauty in a way that I've never seen before!! My heart still tumbles and flutters thinking about His amazingly good works. And last night I went to bed with three more very important/life altering things on my heart. These three things are actually more important to me than those of last year....but oddly enough, I wasn't as fearful. Three new issues that are more scary than anything I've faced before, and I can cling to the work that God did in my life last year. How thankful I am for last year! I've tasted and seen how good He truly is and so last night, I was yet again able to lay it down and just simply rest in His promises and His peace. And this morning I wanted to run and 'pick those worries back up' (so to speak) but I again remembered last year, and it wasn't hard for me to lay them back down and walk in faith today. I'm learning that I may 'LEARN' something, but walking with God is a daily thing. I won't ever have it 'perfected' and He won't be perfected in me, until He comes again. (Philippians1:6) So I'm ok with laying it down daily. Or a million times a day, as I need to some days. Bc I'm reminded of His goodness, His promises, and how he changed my life last year!! :) I won't go into the other two issues that are on my heart tonight, but I will share just as small piece of one of them with you and how God worked and showed up today! :)

Daddy would beat me if he knew I was talking about him on here haha But he has started to get discouraged the last week or two and lost his motivation...he has said stuff about 'giving up' or how 'the doctors can't do anything else for me'....and that I never want to hear coming from anyone, but especially my Daddy. And as his daughter, that has been so very hard to watch and hear him talk about. As I've been praying for this dr appt today and a good report (we won't get results back til next week), I also was praying that God would help motivate my dad again. Help him be positive once again. I've seen it too many times with cancer patients when they loose the motivation to fight and it just takes a turn for the worse. The thought of that has paralyzed me with fear. I have been praying that God would provide that confidence and hope for him... And today at Dad's appointment he ran into an old friend. A guy who he met while he lived out in CALIFORNIA! :) And this man (who is older than my dad) told him all about how he had been fighting his cancer for three years, and how he's had his bad days, and how he's feeling better now than the whole time since he was diagnosed. Whatever else they talked about, Daddy left the drs office completely positive and full of hope for his own situation. Tell me how this man, who my daddy met in California, was there at Daddy's doctors office. At the same time as him today. Fighting cancer. And talking in such a way to motivate my daddy and give him hope. A complete God thing!! And I'm STILL getting God chills over it!! I know I seem to ask for prayers a ton...but its only because I see the power in it. I saw it last year and I'm seeing it every single day as God continues to show up for me when I ask (and of course, even in things I didn't even know I needed to ask for!:) So first, thank you all SO very much for all the prayers for me and my family!!! And second, I want to challenge you to be bold and ask God to show up for you and in your situations!!! He can and He will!! And also, don't be afraid to ask others to join in and be prayer warriors with/for you!!! Love you all!! And thank you again!!! I could never truly express just how thankful I am for my own prayer warrior friends and family.

"He's got this".. God's provision is amazing.

Life is uncertain. Every single detail about it. Every moment comes w the ability for things to change. Good change or bad change. There's a saying "change is the only constant"...in this life, that's how it goes. Change is a constant...But Jesus is MY Constant. And I can look back and see Him in the smallest of details in my life and I'm blown away that "wow God, you were in THAT!?" ....Disappointments, struggles, failures, setbacks.. I can look back at those and SEE how He was in that. It's life changing. It's eye opening. It's refreshing. And when I have a moment where I see that God was in something and how he worked so amazingly in his awesome provision and brought me to something better and something HE himself guided me to...it leaves a smile on my heart. To know that he loves me enough to do that is incredible. But to know he's been doing that my whole life and he won't stop.."He's got this"  has never felt more true. He does have this. All of this. And on days when I feel he has turned his head the other way for a second or feel that he maybe couldn't use "this/that" or wouldn't want to be in the small details of this problem/that decision or whatever....I'm reminded that YES!!!! He DOES want to. And yes, He IS in it!!! I've just got to step back, lay it at His feet and let HIM do what he wants. Even if I have to do it afraid. Afraid of change. Afraid of what's happening. But no longer afraid that he can't take care of it and no longer afraid that He doesn't have MY best in mind. So today I'm doing it afraid. God, take my "this" and do what you want with it! 

From This Day Forward....

http://www.lifechurch.tv/watch/from-this-day-forward/1

I am LOVING this series!!!! I'm on part four and can't wait to finish and then hear the last one! If you're married, single, dating, whatever... WATCH THIS!! It's great stuff!! :)

Let Him have it...

Warning: I've had an extremely emotional day and normally wouldn't post under these conditions but it's heavy and I have to share haha the warning is "this will most likely be an all-over-the-place post!" :)

I've been shown two huge eye opening things today. Both post worthy, but tonight I'm only sharing one.

I've had an insanely difficult time today dealing with the fact that my favorite animal in the entire world has gone missing. My sweet Baby Kitty is nowhere to be found. And this cat is as near and dear to me as a child. I know it may sound silly to those of you who aren't big animal lovers, but this cat came to me in a very "answered prayer" way at a time I really needed her. And I have had that cat since she was two wks old and she has been by my side inseparable since. To find out she had went missing last night tore my heart in two. But I still held out hope that when I came home today she would greet me as she did every single time I pulled in my drive way, by jumping on my hood and trying to climb in my window before I could even get out of my car haha. I've shed tear after tear this evening and in the midst of all this pain (and anger..that's right, I said it. I'm angry) I would remember God's past goodness and just how much He loves me. And you want to know what I did with that tonight?? I got even more angry. ((warning! Raw honesty here!)) Because I just wanted to be upset!!!!! I just wanted to cry and mourn this loss and I didn't want to let that joy in. Can you believe that!? Why!?!?!? It sounds insane.

I fought with this as I cried and cried and couldn't figure out why I wanted to push that joy aside. Then it hit me. I wanted to take a minute, if even a short one, and just be hurt. For some reason if it was over shadowed by that joy ((that was there bc of Jesus living in my heart)) then it meant that my cat didn't mean as much. That the hurt wasn't really that great. That's what I thought at least, as I battled these emotions. But then I was reminded that its ok to be sad. It's ok to cry. And instead of feeling like we have to let all this out and bare it alone, God wants us to take it to Him. He wants us to be honest with Him and tell Him when we are hurting or happy. And yes, even when we are mad. And tonight as I fought back and forth and finally cried out to Him exactly how I was feeling...I was comforted. By a comfort and peace I've fallen in love with this past year or so of my life. Times like tonight when I let Him have it all...and He covers me in His peace and love. So the point of this blog is to say that when you hurt, it's not in vain. God doesn't want those hurts to be belittled. And God doesn't expect us to handle those times on our own. He uses those times and those hurts if we let Him. And if....WHEN..we give the hurt over to Him, He can and does do glorious things with them. He will blow your mind with how He used such darkness and pain. If you're struggling with something tonight, (bc I know that pain is everywhere)..... He does care. It is important. And He wants to pick it up and carry it for you. Carry it and turn it around into something beautiful. Just open up and let Him have it. :)

FourMonths?!

Hi guys!!!

It has been SO long since I've been in the blogging world and I have missed it terribly!!! So much has changed in the past four months that I wouldn't even know where to start in beginning to tell you! It's also been a very very hectic past four months! But I have a few journal entries that I will be sharing on here soon, so keep checking in!! And hopefully I'll be back to my regular blogging routine soon. Hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday!!

Lots of love,

AW

Soulmates?

Warning: This post is most definitely raw and heartfelt and ALL OVER the place!! haha But its something that I've been struggling with for quite some time now and something I just discussed with some friends so I thought I'd share!! 

I no longer believe in "soulmates". As in, I don't believe that there is just ONE person out there for each of us.

I DO believe that LOVE is a choice. An action. NOT a feeling. And that to be together and make it work...you have to make that choice and live out that action. 

I have always believed that concept about love but I use to believe there was only ONE guy out there for me. One guy who I was just SUPPOSE to be with. And then I thought I found him. Twice. ha! Once as a little girl who had puppy dog love for a guy and once as a young woman who loved with a love I never knew existed. But as I wrestle with the whys and the whats of my past relationships I now know that it isn't my loss. It isn't anything I did wrong. And it isn't anything that I can't deal with. I HAVE learned (through this experience) that when I love...I love with my whole heart. I love with my whole being. Everything in me loves this person. And everything in me wants to make that person happy and work to show that person how I feel and that they matter to me. I have learned that I would never do anything to compromise that love or to hurt that love. And I have learned that THAT is what I want in return. Someone who loves that way. But I have wrestled SO SO much with the thought that there was just this one person for me, for well..my whole life. And it has left me confused and really hurt. And now..now I think that that is the WORLD that I live in, influencing me. Well, I believe in something bigger than the world now. And that is my Savior. And I don't think he always wants me to see things the way the world sees them. Like I think the world just wants to hear "Oh, I found my soulmate! The one who was made just for me!" and all that lovey dovey stuff that sounds, oh so lovely! But in reality..what happens if your "soulmate" marries someone else? Just get a divorce when they find their REAL "soulmate"??? NO way Jose!! My Savior definitely wouldn't say "Ok, you were REALLY suppose to be with him/her..so get out of that marriage and get into this one"....negative. So then that would just leave someone out of a soulmate! haha I guess what I'm getting at is that I don't believe that God looks so much at who you're with as He does at who you are when you're with someone. Like I feel He cares more about you being with someone who TOGETHER you two can bring glory to HIM. Way more than He cares about saying "ok, you go here and be with her" "and you, you have to go there to be with him". I mean, don't get me wrong! I believe that He definitely has a hand in people crossing paths, I mean bc He is ultimately in control of everything...but I really don't think He has just this one person who you just HAVE to be with. After all, He gives us the choice of loving Him right? If He lets something that big be our choice I'm kinda thinking He would let me choose who I want to marry too. haha I could be totally wrong on this. And might even some day change my mind. But for right now, I am learning so much in this 'season' of my life. And I kinda like it. :) 

[[Btw, the definition of soulmate is: "A soulmate is believed by some to be the person with whom one has a feeling of deep or natural affinity, similarity, love, sex, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality, or compatibility." haha but the term soulmate I'm using is the idea that there really is just ONE soul out there who was specifically made JUST for you and you for him and that's the end of the story haha]]

It's just..(and here's where this conversation came from:) in my last relationship I prayed about it WAY before entering into it. And I got the green light. I also prayed that if God would have us stay together and take our relationship further someday to give me a peace about it. He did. He always did. But what happened? The guy? Well, he took a different path. So does that leave me alone forever? Or does it leave me begging someone to come back to me? I mean, if that "soulmate" stuff is true then I have to, right?? No. Absolutely not. He made the choice to walk away. He made the choice to not love. And then I SO struggled with "but God, you said" or "God showed me this or that"...when in reality God CAN show you things, but its up to US to act, its up to US to love! And I'm not wanting to put down this person bc many of you know him and he is still a dear friend even after everything. However, I am using this story bc its my story. It's what has lead me to this conversation, these views/thoughts, and now, this blog. And now it is what has lead me to believe that love is more than a feeling and more than this "one person". Its a commitment, an action, a decision you make, and a place you never leave.

So instead of praying for my "soulmate"...(as I have, along with most little girls, my whole life) I pray that someday, when God knows I'm ready, that He WILL allow me to cross paths with (not my "soulmate") but someone who loves God above all else. Someone who will not really treat me "like a princess" (again..worldly words:) but like a gift, like something you received and wouldn't want to lose. Bc lets face it, I'm no princess and I definitely don't want to be 'sheltered' hahaha!  (Maranda, Emily and Casey...if you're reading this....movie guy!!!! haha!) And someone who that being in a relationship with him, we can together bring glory to our Savior. And someone that, once we make that decision, will lock the door and never walk away. That, is what I'm waiting for. Not a "knight in shining armor" or a "soulmate". :) 

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Facebook Repost.

Well, its done :( If you are reading this, great news! I didn't delete you. haha That either means a)you don't speak false rumors about me OR b)you do it secretly and I don't know about it. HA!! I am just saddened. To know that someone could be so two faced and so...mean. Especially someone I thought so highly of. Please, If you don't like me don't act like you do! haha I seriously can say I love each of my facebook friends (ok, there may be a few of you who I've not actually met...haha but yall count though bc I HAVE NOTHING BUT LOVE!!!!) And it KILLS me to see someone being so fake!! If you don't like me then that is your business. I wouldn't mind a reason behind that haha but totally ok with it. ;-P I understand that not everyone is always GOING to like me. But DON'T try to be my best friend just to talk about other people to me (bc I DON'T WANNA HEAR IT!) and DON'T go telling LIES about me to other people. sheeeeesh!! I just HAD to free myself of the drama. Here I am not feeling very nice for deleting a person on facebook! I actually feel terrible about it. BUT, I really believe that my GOD wants me to focus on things that are pure and good and I honestly couldn't get 'passed' a few things that should be just that, in the past, bc of these select few people. Forgive me facebook world. Rant over. :)

Hello Blogger! I'm back! Well, sort of :) I promise to come visit more often at least. haha I have had SUCH a heavy heart lately. LOTS to write about. But tonight I'm sharing a glimpse of my heart. This was my dilemma today. To delete some people from facebook and feel TERRIBLE about it. Or to keep them and keep seeing and hearing nonsense that keeps my past in my present!? I just wish the other people involved knew how they were being talked about. Really saddens my heart. Hate to come back in and ask for prayer first thing haha but if you could pray about this and ALL parties involved that would be GREATLY appreciated. I don't like being hurt and I know the other parties wouldn't either and not only that, the people doing the hurting may not even realize what they're really doing. Pray for them as well. Hope all my bloggin' buddies are doing grrrrreat!!! And I promise to be back SOON! ;) Have a great week!!!! ♥ AW

"180" Movie

I was pretty stoked to get to hand out cards to 20-30 people yesterday at Winter Jam telling them about this movie. And after sharing with them, I'm sharing w/you guys and my fb friends...again. haha It's just THAT good. If you haven't watched it then when you have about 35 free minutes I think you would really be surprised by this short film. I hope you watch it!! And then I hope you share it!! :) Love you all!!

LOVING - by Karen Kingsbury

Yes, I HAVE been waiting months for this trailer.

And yes I did get overly excited when Karen announced

that she was going to post it on Thursday. I also pulled over

at 8pm just so I could watch this right when she posted it,

and then went about my way again. bahahaha! I'm only 

slightly obsessed with Karen's books!! ;-) 

I can NOT WAIT til March!!!!! 

"Jesus plus"

Jesus + _______ = Everything.

Fill in that blank. What would go in that space for you? For me, I know there are a few different answers. I could list a few things that could fill the spot... "I've got Jesus, now if I only had __(this)___ then I would have everything!" At church on Thursday, Matt (our preacher) told us to fill in that blank, in our minds, with what we are wanting or waiting for or expecting before we're happy with having "everything". I will tell you, my number one thing was adoption. If only some way I could adopt my little Asian baby that I've so had the desire to have someday, THEN, everything would be perfect. I'd have it all. haha [yes, I want to adopt and its something I've blogged about before and a desire that God laid on my heart back in 2007 and I have NO idea how that will EVER happen lol] but its my main "Jesus plus" item. Other "Jesus plus" items include things such as resolved issues, restored relationships, health issues, marriage, finances, etc. Well Matt then said....whatever is in that space is the ENEMY OF YOUR JOY. And at first I wanted to say "what?! no way..." but ya know these last few weeks I've been talking about this "Joy Switch" series (on facebook and IG) and when I sit back and think of the things that flip my joy switch the most...it most definitely includes the above mentioned people and issues. I would have never thought that these things (although some God given...like restored relationships or the desire God placed in my heart to adopt) were actually taking a spot that they didn't have any right taking. They are sitting on my switch and they can't possibly hold it up, they will always weigh it down. ONLY CHRIST can keep that switch flipped on the "on" position! :) The right answer to that question is 

Jesus + nothing = Everything.

Philippians 3:7 says "But what things were gain to me, these I have counted loss for Christ"

We are to consider all these things as NON ESSENTIAL!

Entering church we were all given a little cross. Matt said to take that cross and put it on your "Jesus plus" item and listen as Christ says "what is that, compared to Me?" wow!!! That message has helped me TREMENDOUSLY!!!! This whole "Joy Switch" series has helped me more than any other series I've ever heard, bc its helped me to think of it in terms of NO ONE DESERVES CONTROL OF THAT SWITCH OTHER THAN CHRIST. And I have been SO filled with Joy since learning all that I have in this series!!!! I still let people, things, and situations have access to my switch....however, I'm quick to realize that I did and it gets flipped back ON the second I give control back to HIM!!! :) Now with this equation, I am aware of just what exactly was fighting for control of that switch and now am getting those things out of the way. I'm setting my focus and anchor on Christ and continuously giving over control of my joy switch to HIM!! It's my prayer that each of you will ask the questions that I did and earnestly seek out the things that kill your joy. Again, not all of them will be bad, some may even be God given desires...but NOTHING deserves that spot! ;) And ONLY Christ can sit on that switch without weighing it down!!!

"If Jesus and His cross are not 
your primary consideration, 

joy will not be your 
ultimate destination"

-Matt Evans

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Ahhhhhhh!!!!!

Spent the day with Mom and Lucky shopping for WEDDING DRESSES!!!!!! I can not believe my baby sister is getting married!!! I'm so stinkin excited!!! We had a blast today! She handled it much better than I would have...ha! I told mom not to expect that with me! She said she doesn't. LOL!! There were some watery eyes today!!! She looked absolutely BEAUTIFUL in every one she tried on! Gahhh, I'm gonna be a big blubbering baby the day she actually gets married! And probably lots of days in between! haha Love love LOVE my family!!! Overflowing with happiness today! God. Is. Good!!! ♥

The truth..

‎"The truth is that the 143 million orphaned children and the 11 million who starve to death or die from preventable diseases and the 8.5 million who work as child slaves, prostitutes, or under other horrific conditions and the 2.3 million who live with HIV add up to 164.8 million needy children. And though at first glance that looks like a big number, 2.1 billion people on this earth proclaim to be Christians. The truth is that if only 8% of the Christians would care for one more child, there would not be any statistics left. This is the truth. I have the freedom to believe it. The freedom, the opportunity to do something about it. The truth is that He loves these children just as much as He loves me and now that I know, I am responsible." -Katie Davis. 

Just WOW!!!!!

This book and Katie's testimony is life changing!!!! 

"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." -James1:27

♥

If you aren't thankful for what you got 

you probably won't be thankful for what you get! :-)

repost quote from A.C ;)

It's not about us!

You know what its about?? It's not about us. It's not about me. And its not about you. It's about giving up. Giving up a 'control' that isn't really ours. Giving up fears. Giving up relationships (that, though we may be entrusted to, are not really ours). Giving up our finances. Giving it ALL up. Letting go. Taking a deep breath. And GIVING it to God. HE is what its about............In an attempt to send someone some encouragement, I in return was encouraged. I was overwhelmed with this statement. IT'S NOT ABOUT US!!! We run through life holding on to all these "things" and life just passes us by!! Just flies on past us! Why is it SO darn difficult to LET GO and LET GOD! I can say it all day and know it in my heart, but tomorrow, I know full and well I will face this again. This is when the 'dying to self' DAILY comes into play. You don't just do it/learn it once and then automatically you're this awesome person who never gets down, who always does right and who never falls short. Nooooooo. Did you catch that last part of dying to self...DAILY. Its a growth process and it won't be complete until He returns (Philippians1:6). That is so comforting. Thank you Father for teaching me. And even, reteaching me. Daily.

I am not skilled to understand..

"I am not skilled to understand What God has willed, what God has planned. 

I only know at His right hand, Stands one who is my Savior" 

♥ 

This song was a song God used about 6yrs ago to speak to me in a way that no other song had before. I was struggling with something that I hadn't yet had to deal with and was constantly crying out "I don't understand!" with my oh so little faith...turns out, not much has changed. Every time I've heard that song over the past 6yrs I've rejoiced in the way God used it to move me. Its not played a whole lot anymore so its a pleasant surprise when I hear it &leaves me all warm inside. Well, as I sit here at my computer working on pictures I've got Air1 playing in my ear as to not get distracted (so easy for me to do! haha) but just as I'm editing away, this song came on. It hit me like a smack PUNCH  in the face just how much I'd been crying out lately (still in my oh so little faith) "I don't understand!!!!!" and ya know what?! WE'RE NOT SKILLED TO UNDERSTAND!!!!! As I've stated on here a million times, my favorite Bible verse is Proverbs3:5-6 that says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths"....and He TELLS me not to lean on my own understanding! Bc I DON'T understand it all!! But I'm called to trust Him! The one who died to be my savior! That is so easy to forget in today's world!!! With SO much going on, its easy to focus on ANYTHING but that verse and God and His promises!!! But tonight, I'm grateful beyond words for that song. Those lyrics. And most importantly, the God who loves me enough to give me those little 'punches in the face' to help me realize He is still God and He is still in control!!!! 

A Place Only You Can Go♥

I've been trying to upload this video for MONTHS! haha I finally got it uploaded on Saturday! It's one of my favorite NTB songs and they busted out the acoustic version of it and it was quite possibly the most amazing thing I've heard. HA! These guys are so gifted!! Anyway, I've shared a video of this song before but I'm sharing this one bc its MINE! :) I was there and got to hear it in person...which is something I HIGHLY recommend! They will pretty much blow your mind! :)

[btw, if you listen closely you can here the girls beside me singing..haha!!
 And at the end you can see her flailing arms! HAHAHA!
Love the ppl you meet at concerts!]

I'm officially a big girl. haha!

Had my first iv on Friday and conquered one of my BIGGEST fears!!!

THAT is 'picture-on-my-blog' worthy!! HAHA! The test came back

normal so its not my gallbladder...kind of exciting, but kind of not. haha 

I was so hoping that would be the end of my health problems! BUT, 

instead...we keep going! I'm taking some new meds (probably the 

sixth or seventh different one they've had me on! haha) but I have

faith that we'll figure it out and all will be well in time! God is so good!

I know that He will get me through this...and in the mean time, He's

doing some MAJOR renovations in my heart! :) Thank you all for 

the prayers!!! Praying you all have a wonderful and 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! 

♥AW

btw, chew on this for some January 1st goodness! :)

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: 

The old has gone, the new is here!"

2 Corinthians 5:17