08.04.10

Just got home a little while ago from my great uncle's funeral service..

They had the military walk and...well, it was just beautiful.

I wasnt old enough to remember my papaw's and always wondered

what it was like...today was VERY emotional for me. WAY more than I

expected. For all of us really. But to hear all the stories about my uncle,

he was a great Chrisitan man. So he is now Where there will be NO MORE

pain..no more cancer. I felt exceptionally close to my papaw today. Being

there..with that side of the family..in these circumstances. I have always

hated the fact (and avoided talking of it) that my papaw passed away when

I was so young. I barely remember him. It really gets to me sometimes. I

see how some people treat their grandparents (and even parents) and it KILLS

me inside. Grandparents are wonderful! You should never take them, or
anyone for granted. All of my other grandparents passed away before I was
born and so he was the only one I ever got to meet...and I was only five when he
was what Ive always felt as 'taken away' but Ive come to realize that really, God

just called him to his Forever Home. I know I talk of Heaven a good bit..this
world is just not for me. I long for MY Forever Home :) But on days like today, I
long for it even more..to one day get to be back in the presence of the papaw
that I have missed for sooo many years. To finally get to know him. And
hopefully, the rest of my grandparents too. I was debating on whether to go
today or not bc of everything but Im really glad I did. It WAS emotional but it
opened my eyes to so much and helped put a peace back in my heart that
God IS in control, even in the sometimes dark, scary, painful times of death.
And that we are one day closer to finally being HOME. ♥